It is what I am writing is summary of what I described in my meditation class;
My Guru ST nikka singh ji used to explain us when I was studying Gita in 1982. he was a real teacher who know the truth of life. he never touched money whole of his life . then he was about 96 of age.
he used to repeat according the knowledge of Bhagwad Gita Chapter 13. ‘ you are not body, you are not mind, you are not sense organs, you are observer. who watches to your mind, body, you are that. when you think some thing observer remains before your thought. he never born never dies. you think that you are body that is the whole problem. when you go inward , your mind goes and which remains that bliss that you are.
Now I comes on Psalm 139: 1-12, 23-24.
O lord ,you have searched me and know me. you know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from far away.
comment; the same thing , that observer in us knows to every action, when we sit and when we rise up. you have fell it that some thing in us watches our thoughts, you say first I wants to go there but now I wants to go an other side. so meaning of this mind is changeable but watcher is not changeable. and one thing more when Psalm 139 says ,” O lord ,you have searched me and know me” every saint speaks like this which ever he may be from any realign of the world, that he tried his best but he was not able to do this and when lord wanted him, the he searched me, this is real grace. I was not able to do this but by his grace I became eligible to find him. because what I did it was very little.
3 ; you search out my path, and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways.
4; Even before a word is on my tongue ,o lord you know it completely.( that was my Guru used to say there is something who is before when thought arises.).
5; you hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me .
6; such knowledge is so wonderful for me ;it is so high that I can not attain it.
you can see the beauty of it ,when you start to observe your thoughts they starts to minimize and eternal bliss remains there. this is what is real meditation. then you will be able to find a new life. so he said,” such knowledge I so wonderful for me; it is so high that I can not attain it. ” but if we can do it in the right way it leads us toward Immorality in this life.
7; where can I go from your spirit? or where can I flee from your presence?
8 ; If I ascend to heaven, you will be there, if I make my bed in sheol, ( under earth) you will be there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning and settle at the farthest limits of the sea.
10; Even there your hand shell lead me, and your right hand shall hold me fast.
11; If you say ,” Surely darkness shall cover me, and light around me become night.”
12; Even the darkness is not dark to you. the night is as bright as the day, for darkness is as light to you.
23; Search me ,O God and know my heart,; test me and know my thoughts.
24; see if there is any wicked way in me , and lead me in the way everlasting.
comment; when we stat to observing our thoughts, what we find there ? we were aware of our wicked ways. Krishanamurti used to say,’ If you watch your frustration ,disorder out of that comes order, this is saint indicating us.